you call that a dream.

let me just, go away.

away from everything. everything.

disappointment. strike one by one.

never stop. 

each strike is stronger than before.

hitting on my mind.

tumbling me down. making me fall. breaking me into pieces.

no one pick me up.

i already, can't stand up all by myself.

i can't.

all my efforts in making myself look all okay has failed, completely fail.

just look at how i break.

how i break into pieces that i can't recognize anymore.

i don't even know how to express my feelings in words anymore.

let alone telling anyone about all these.

a FAILED dream.

i made the dream and i destroyed it with my bare hand.

everything. everything i've done in this few years is just nonsense.

crying out loud. really loud. really really loud. 

crying out loud. growling. 

i can't take the reality wholeheartedly.

too much too much. rushing into my brain. 

munching each every thing they found in my brain.

then they lurk to other parts of my body.

underneath my skin. they just continue to munch.

just to see i rot.

rot into dust in the ugliest way.

i fall.

no one catches.

the expected way of how the world treats all these.

no one asks.

they don't.

who cares?

no one.

cos heart aches like this does not worth a word of comforting.

heart aches like this does not worth any attention.

everyone. again. listen to it. then walk away.

let me rot in my own world.

no one cares. no one fucking cares.

the anger buried under my heart just explode.

i guess i shouldn't be hiding all my feelings at first.

breathing out doesn't help.

nothing helps.

just. just let me go away.

away. away from everything.