Slow down

Just right when I said I was happy recently, I have this strike of painful thoughts rushing in like a tsunami. Life oh life. Because I've been too nosy these days, I'm slowly loosing myself. I looked back, and realise this was how I was years ago. Until someone came into my life where I decided to shut all the doors. Then finally I learned to open back the doors these few years. But I realise, this is not what I want. It's still the same, where no one cares a fuck. And I completely feel discouraged after hearing a few words this two days. I decided I can shut all the doors and back off. Like 4 years back.

I thought I was happy, I thought. Maybe I'm just being forgetful.

你用真心在付出的感觉像是一个笑话。