I'm okay.

It's not something that can be solved, so I choose to skip. I guess they did so, so why shouldn't I?

And I told other on this. burden? lighten.

No disease have been found, I'm perfectly healthy and pretty and alive. Relieved.

Pretending is tiring I know, but it's a habit and I feel numb to react more outside of the blog.

Plus, I'm happy now, there's no need to pretend.

And I have my new life, new friends, new crushes, new hair, new waist measurement, new body weight.

Everything is brand new. I feel complete. I like to be "complete". Complete smells good.


My mind is clear, I know what should I do.

I know what I like, I know what I don't like.


I know I was the one who made this decision to stay on Science and I must persist no matter how bad I did.

I know I was the one who made this decision to not continue Science in the future because I love language more, not that I did bad in Sciences.

I still like Biology, I still like Chemistry.

I still love drawing diagrams, understanding processes and pressing calculator.

I still miss electrical circuits and astronomy.

But I don't feel like making them my carrier, that's it.


I know I should take steps according to my heart, to my instinct.

They are so clear. I know what I should do.


I'm totally fine.

Like seeing a bright sky.

Taking in a deep fresh air. Complete.

I'm not tired, I'm not worn out, I'm walking.

I will sweat and feel sleepy, but I'm not giving up.

I take the path, with faith.


And okay means okay.