#3

-I knew it.
I just need more confidence from a little success, no matter how small the "success" is, it's a big confidence-booster for me. but if i start to slow down my pace, i'll be in the lag phase and look at the consequence of that lag phase, this recent me lol.
okay, i seriously need to work harder. i don't want to be laughed at anymore. i don't like it. T.T

-btw, the fuck? d'you ever seen i did that thing? how could you just said that when i don't say bad about your thing? I AM NOT TOTALLY BAD on that thing okay? shuddup! like, denying a person when you never see their talent? are you judging me based on what i looks like? seriously? duh. maybe you said that because maybe you think that i'm just a passerby who don't actually need your shits. okay. calm, me. but... uh. i'm sad seriously.

-mood switching bitch is not good, i must do something. not to be too happy or too sad. 有大喜必有大落，i need 平常心. hmmm...

-when some emotion is suppressed, it'll be forgotten, somehow. =3 not all happy about this, but at least, erm... relieved? i just don't have the need to worry about the thing that i've always worry about.

-my body wants girl but my mind wants guy, what to do?