the road not taken

everyone, EVERYONE know that I'm cutting my weight since last year. sincerely friend, no change happens... the most MOST MOST successful one was in last year's September, ever since then, BOOOOOOOM, here you go a fat ass sitting in front of her computer blogging shits about weight loss again.

not talking about loosing weight yet. just updating what happen recently since my last post is like weeks ago.

1. vegetarian
somehow, the always-craving-for-chicken me is now a vegetarian. though i still have the crave of wanting to eat meat, but i'll definitely regret once i ate because of the meaty flavor makes me feel gross. so i quit eating meat.

i once told a friend, i will become vegetarian someday just not "now". because i think that i should have a reason, at least, to become a vegetarian, not just because that I want. so now i've found a few. therefore, i stopped eating meat.

- animal lover. i always claim that i love animals. but what is animal lover when you're eating meat at the same time? and, breeding a whole farm of chicken, cow, goat, etc., just for human's consumption is cruel. who think of this idea?! so absurd!

this ONLY reason is enough for me to stop eating meat. I'm not really strict on this whole vegetarian thing. I only don't eat meat, but i do eat eggs and drink milk.

but the one thing that i realise is that my skin has became better since i stopped eating meat. good thing. good start.

2. working
I'm employed in earlier of this month. finally, and again.

This work is....... i don't really know how to describe. i got overworked last week. i feel dizzy, headache, and finally getting sick. i don't think my akhem... weak body can afford long working hours. and the most important thing, waking up soooo early in the morning kills.

It's sort of uhm... tired yet it's not. sometimes i feel REALLY tired but not all the time. i did various kind of things in the past two weeks. and the most tiring job always made me feel really exhausted. and i don't know why, something, some thoughts in my mind asked me to keep moving on, don't care about the exhaustion, just work and work and work.

maybe it's because that i've changed 3 jobs and i can't bare myself to be so uhm... "change-y"? i don't know... but it's already april so i don't think there's any other job for me to change either.

BACK TO THE TITLE.

the road not taken, why? cos i never succeed... seriously.

I get really sad when i realise that i just get fatter each everyday since i stop controlling diet and sit-ups everything every effort i've made. i'm really frustrated yet i still don't have the motivation to continue anymore. see and count how many bloody blog posts i've written just for this freaking topic omg. so, why am i blogging about this again?

because of this:

what. your friend, me, just started to consume slimming pills. 

SO, HERE'S MY CHALLENGE-MYSELF-POST.

just to make sure that the pills works. eh, seriously, i don't really feel like eating after taking the pill. and today is only the first day. amazing. good starting.

plus, SIT-UPS MUST COME BACK TO MY LIFE. 

FOR SURE this time must not fail anymore. me, sincerely praying, don't ever fail again and get fatter seriously.

nice clothes, I AM PREPARED!!!!

my body is YET to be prepared. wait, u wait. I WILL WEAR NICE CLOTHES AND I CAN WEAR NICE CLOTHES!!!!!